alright.
so. i was thinking of something today….
about me….and about you…..and about us and i don’t now if i’ve finished thinking about it, really.
it’s been almost a year now. and wow we’ve past a lot of events together.
and……there’s been many many ups and downs, highs and lows, and it’s been the most terrifying roller coaster i’ve ever been on.
i feel like shit…….
because of myself and i don’t know what to do about that.
there’s something wrong with me lately and i can’t do anything about it
and i don’t know why, but one of the questions that have been on my mind lately is
“do i regret the confession”
and the answer is always the same: no. not a single bit.
and i answer that in a click every time.
so i wondered….why am i sometimes unhappy?
and i’m happy with my position, my identity, my relationship, OUR relationship
but………..i have this constant feeling that i’m not enough
i’m not happy with myself…..i’m not happy with the way i am with you.
i’m not content with myself, i know you are, but i’m not
and i need to change myself.
i don’t know how.
i need your help….
to work on me WITH me….
because i can’t do it alone….
